Too Much Information In History...

So on my quest to not have any more babies anytime soon, I went in search of different birth control methods other than the pill. My body cannot tolerate the “fake” hormones and after trying several times I decided it just wasn’t worth it. I’d rather feel crummy one week out of the month than all four. However I’m tired of messing with what we are currently using, so I set out on researching different forms of birth control.

So like any wondering mind I turned to the Internet for a little knowledge. And for the most part found nothing more than I already knew in regards to birth control.

That was until however I came across a “history of birth control” if you will. Well let me just say MY issues seemed a lot less bothersome after I had my little history lesson. This was all very fascinating to me I just couldn’t stop researching the topic, much like, what was my blog and I referenced to the other day? Oh yes a Train Wreck you can’t turn away from. So don’t look away now, or you might miss the best wreck yet!!

It seems Ancient Egyptian women used lemon rein and crocodile dung as a form of barrier method. Europeans used beeswax and Asian women used oiled paper as a form of cervical cap. Condoms more your thing? Well the condom was first introduced in the 17th century, made at that time out of a length of animal intestine. Thank God for the invention of latex…No?

Then my search led to several folklores or myths about different measures once believed to prevent pregnancy. Who thought up AND believed this stuff?? The best one I read was also the first one I read. The folklore goes as such: If you shake a can of Coca-Cola up and put it into the vagina after ejaculation it will kill all the sperm and therefore prevent you from becoming pregnant. You can’t help but laugh at it; it was the most absurd thing I’d ever heard!!

Other myths about how you can prevent pregnancy were: Sneezing and peeing after sex….Having sex in a hot tub or standing up or with the women on top. Another that I thought really should be a classic: If you have sex during a full moon and do it standing up in a closet, then you won’t get pregnant!! Well I guess I better go clean my closet out in preparation for the next full moon!!! There was even a note about how using plastic wrap instead of a condom is not a good substitute. Good to know I will make a note of that!

So there you have it a little lesson in birth control for you all. I believe I shall stick to my current form of birth control…. And no unlike one of the suggestions or myths I found today it isn’t prayer….Just incase you were wondering.

Becoming Me...

For years I have kept parts of who I am hidden away. I knew what certain people thought I should be and what they thought I was and molded to it….As too not ruffle any feathers and to not cause drama and discord.

Then I started blogging and told myself that on my blog I would be myself….Every part of myself. And it was so freeing, it was like I found my wings and I learned more about who I really was, and saw how much I was allowing others to control who I was, and how unhealthy that can be.

Of course finally coming into my own did not come with out a price. I was told by friends that I wasn’t who they thought they knew anymore…That’s because I was always who I knew they wanted me to be, and now that I’m showing them, and being, who I am-- all of who I am-- that takes the control away from them and they didn’t like that. No longer did I fit their little mold they had me in, to fit their lives the way they liked it.

Family members and the ones who know me best, even though I didn’t think they did, were excited that I finally broke free from the control of others and put my wings on and became more of myself, not worrying what others thought of me anymore. Because really at the end of the night you only have your self to answer to. And now I finally sleep with no guilt or anger for letting others control me with my fear of what they’ll think or what they’ll say.

I started to defend my self in the beginning when people where attacking me, but then I thought that’s stupid, they don’t have to defend themselves for being who they are….Why should I?

The longer you conform to molds people want you to conform too the longer your stifling your true self. It’s like burying your self alive, and before you know it your choking on the dirt of anger and resentment.

It was a long and tough dig, but I found the way to let myself out…. All of myself.

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Roles...

On further observation of other wives, I’m not sure I have gotten the whole wife role down. Chad’s buddies who are married, have the most possessive and controlling wives, or is that what I am suppose to be and are not? Let me site you a few examples if I may…..

Example one: One of he’s buddies, we will call him Petey, was to go to see Chad compete last weekend. His wife was complaining about it, and how she wouldn’t see him very much over the weekend then. So to make it up to her he took Monday off. Well last Thursday comes along and he’s wife wakes him up crying…literally crying….That he’s going to go. She’s 38 years old mind you. Did he go, you wonder? Nope he stayed. Using this same buddy as an example: A few weeks back he was at the gas station paying for his gas when he’s wife called him, she heard the girl behind the counter say “Thanks”, while handing him he’s change back, and she went ballistic!! Chad said for DAYS she was calling him at work and accusing him of cheating…He’s NEVER cheated on her, so its not like she has paranoia of it happening again or something. She also overheard the girls at work talking about tan lines, while he was on the phone with her and threw a fit! I don’t get it! He told Chad its getting bad but he’s staying for the kid’s….That aren’t even his!!

Example two: Another of he’s buddies wife gets angry if he even “talks” about a girl on TV, ya know like to say, “wow Kristen Davis on Sex and the City is the hottest of them all on that show”…She’d be pissed and crabbing’!!! Like he’s talking about a real woman in their life, like it could ever happen!!

Example three: Another’s wife won’t even let him have activities he enjoys, like Chad goes to jiu-jitsu class twice a week, she would never allow it. And so he doesn’t have any activities or interest outside of the house and work.

Example four: And yet another’s wife gets all bent out of shape and cryin’ that he’s going to leave her, over simply talking to, say me, at the company Christmas party or if I stop in at work….And don’t get me started on the wrath and the interrogating that these husbands take everyday over the few women that work there, and their “involvement” with them!! One’s their boss…. Come off it!! So apparently they can’t even talk to another female or even have female friends!!!

It’s a good thing Chad has the wife he does… He grapples with a girl in class every week, and if he had one of “those” wives, granted that he was allowed to go at all, that piece of information would for sure put a stop to it!!

Like about a month ago, Chad went and grabbed a beer with the guys after work… And he told them, “Hang on let me go call Kate real quick so she knows where I’m at”…. They were shocked… Like “you’re gonna tell her??!!!!” He’s “Ummm yeah… why not?”

Where’s the trust I ask you??? Chad has friends that say they’d go beat a guy up for hittin on their wife… Its not the guys you have to worry about its your wife. You should trust her enough to know that she wouldn’t accept their advances. I’ve gotten hit on and I politely say thanks for the compliment but I’m married, Chad and I both agreed, though, that I should still keep the free drink!! (Chad’s view: It’s one less one he has to buy! And secretly I think he takes it as a compliment to himself...Thats how I take it when girls look at him or say he's hot.)

I know that Chad loves me and I him, we know that we’re it for each other and as the saying goes “ come home to each other at the end of the night, cause the honeys sweeter from the hive!!” …. It just seems to me the more you suffocate the other, the more they’re going to want to fly. But then again, maybe I have it all wrong.

Playin' With My Brother...And Daddy....

Playin' knock-knock with brother, AND daddy on Sunday!!! Enjoy everyone....

HNT...

I'm late I know I'm sorry!!! So much has been going on around here I completely forgot till I saw everyone's this morning!!

Is It Wrong That I Laughed At This?..

The other night Chad and I were in the kitchen and this conversation took place:

Chad: Did you hear that Pamela Anderson and Kid Rock are getting married?

Me: Ummm didn't she leave him?

Chad: Yeah but their back together and getting married.....For real this time.

Me: So what she just leaves and goes back, that's like her hobby or something? She left Tommy like a thousand times and then went back...If I were Kid Rock I'd have trust issues....

Chad: It's PAMELA ANDERSON! She can do what ever the hell she wants!! Like he's not going to take her back. It's PAMELA ANDERSON!!!

Me: So if I left you and went to be with another man and then came back expecting you to take me back you'd have no problem with that??

Chad: You're missing the point......(shaking head).....IT'S PAMELA ANDERSON!!!

Me: Ummm I'm not sure you didn't just insult me....(laughing though)

Chad: It's like what Bobby (buddy at work) said about Jessica Simpson.... "I'd do her INFRONT of Amy's attorney!!!"

Me: Oh well,.... that's real poetic!!!

Chad: It's funny..... I don't agree with it, I would never say that of course!!

Me: Of course you wouldn't honey....(pat on back)....

I thought the comment from he's friend at work was funny though.... Is it wrong and against all my sisters out there that I laughed at this???

Ok...Breath....

Ok we did it.....Now we just have to WAIT and SEE.....

Keep those vibes and thoughts a coming!!!!

Thanks for all the ones you sent yesterday...I feel em'!!

Not to be selfish, and bogart all the good luck and give a break vibes....But PLEASE keep them coming!!!

Behavior.....

Personality and behavior are tricky words. In my life, albeit short, I’ve heard this phrase over and over again in reference to others… “Ahh that’s just how (insert name here) is, they’ve always been that way.” OR…. “ That’s just how they are, we just ignore it and let it go, act like it didn’t happen.” These statements have always been said when the mentioned person has been rude, moody, or hurtful.

Now to me that’s not just a personality issue, that’s learned behavior, as in learned that they can get away with it because every one will just ignore it for that’s how they are. I’ve never understood this. Being strong willed, determined, or even not taking any bullshit from people is a personality trait, being down right rude and hurtful and selfish is a learned behavior. In my opinion any ways.

I speak my mind and I stand up for what I believe and I try not to let what others say get to me, but I was also taught that that’s all well and good and you should be yourself, that its not well and good to be ruefully hurtful and so selfish not to have decorum in the things you say to others. I’m not advocating censoring of ones self, but I don’t think you should be hurtful either.

When it comes to bad behavior are we excusing it as a personality trait??

If I were to be rude to someone or hurtful, my family would call me on it, one because they should and two because that would be so unlike me. But there are people I’ve been around that do it and they get from their family or friends, “oh that’s just how _____ is!!”

For instance… When I was a teenager we were taught to respect our parents and to not be smart and moody with them. I’ve since heard of women who in their teens, TOLD their mothers what to do and would get into actual PHYSICAL fights with them!! If I ever even TRIED that, my dad would of called the cops himself to come and get me!!!! And it seems that selfish rude behavior continues with them into adulthood…At least with the ones I’ve known.

Even if you didn’t have the greatest parents or a structured childhood, wouldn’t common since and decent social decorum factor in at SOME point???

Why do others give some people excuses, for their behaviors?

Dare I say It?.....

There is something that we... And by we I am referring to Chad and I.... Really want to work out. Dare I say it out loud?? Very seldom do things seem to work out for us and good things shot our way....So I'm not going to talk about it, in fear of jinxin' it. But please send "LUCK" vibes are way and "Give these guys a break" vibes as well!! Thanks!!!

Review....

I'm back and it went too FAST!!!! We had a GREAT time. Saturday my sister and brother in law met up with KimmyK, we saw her gallery and had lunch. Let me just say that Kimmy is just too cute!!! We took a picture of all of us, but mine didn't come out, it was blurred, However I do have a picture of Kimmy's back!! Best I had.

Then we went to meet up with Chad at he's competition. He did really good, but as time ran out, the ref made a Questionable call and gave the other guy points....But Chad did awesome, he was really happy with it, and now he has "The Bug" he's looking to compete in the Gracie's in the fall.

Oh yeah and the boys did great, and yes they remembered me!!

And my list for weird things I've seen on the side of the road, got a little longer on the trip as well. On the way down I saw a lamp shade and a toilet set. On the way home I saw a pair of jeans and a fake Christmas tree top!!!

Leaving...

Alright everything is all set, we are leaving tomorrow around four in the afternoon. I'm going to run errands in the morning and I have to pack yet, but other than that everything is a go!! I'm getting excited now.... I wrote up an info sheet for Chad's Mom today....I thought I'd post it here so you can all see what a neurotic mother I can be at times. Probably a little TOO prepared, but hey it made me feel better. I tried to make it a little bit humorous, and don't worry Dad, I "blacked out" any numbers or any personal information....... Step inside the catacombes of my mind.....

All You Need To Know About Levi and Carter….And some you didn’t!!

Mornings 101: They have been averaging between a 7:30-8:30 waking time. It’s best to wait till you hear them yelling “dad?” and jumping in their cribs. They can talk between themselves or to their puppies sometimes for a half hour. But they’re not ready to get up until they jump around yelling for dad….Any sooner and they’ll just be cranky.

We get their cereal and (rice) milk ready and then go get them up. Start with Levi, Carter’s more patient, change him and then take him out to watch Noggin (ch. 298) and give him his cereal and sippy of milk. Repeat with Carter.

They usually like to just chill in the mornings and watch noggin so then I get my shower while their doing that…..But with the excitement of having Grandma there, its anyone’s guess what they’ll actually do…HEHEH.

They eat lunch around 11:30ish. After they eat lunch I change them and dress them.

Afternoons 101: This is where its touch and go, as far as naps. They change around times and duration of their naps weekly it seems!! I can tell you that this week they’ve been going down around 1:00-1:30. If you put them down and they get back up and jump around let them go for a few minutes and then go back in and say “no-no night night time” and lay them back dawn. If they start to throw a fit when you do this, spank them and say it again. PLEASE do not feel afraid to spank them. (They usually dive for their pillow when I come back in cause they know now if they throw a fit they get spanked!!..It’s really quite cute.) This week they have been sleeping till around 3:30. Getting up from naps is the same routine as the morning. Levi will occasionally talk or fuss in he’s sleep, so wait if you hear this, he usually gets himself back to sleep with in a few minutes.

They get a snack when they wake up from their nap: Juice and cereal, cookies, pretzels or whatever.

They eat dinner around 5:00ish.

Bedtime is around 8:30. Same thing with getting them to sleep as with the naps.

Must Haves 101: For sleeping they have to have their puppy AND their baby bug, (the glow worms). Carter’s puppy has the spots, Levi’s puppy is plain…But they’ll let you know if they have the wrong puppy, OH yes!! They also have to have their CD playing as well, just press play on the player, It’s the button with the sticker on it.

Special Treats 101: They like marshmallows, we put them in a sandwich zip loc bag and give them each one to eat them out of, they love it! They also can have the rice ice cream in the freezer and theirs cones in the cupboard, there’s Popsicles in the freezer as well, and I saved the flavored water packs you brought as a treat for them over the weekend.

Fit Throwing 101: When they throw a fit, we put them in their bed till they can come out and be big boys. Don’t be afraid to do this, it’s the only thing that will calm them, they have to calm themselves. They won’t stop throwing the fit till you put them in their beds, they’ll quite down and in a few minutes you’ll hear them jumping around, and in a better mood, that’s their way of saying “I’m sorry I’ll be a big boy now!!”

Medications 101: At lunch they get their inhaler, I’ll have to put together for you, they get two puffs each, hold it to them for a ten count after the first puff and then do the second puff and hold for a ten count, I usually take deep breaths while I’m giving it to them to get them to breath it in.
At bedtime they both get 5mls of the Clarinex, that’s a dropper full. Carter also gets his antibiotic, its in the fridge it’s the Omnicef. He gets ¾ a teaspoon.

Foods 101: Nothing with milk of any kind, I have most things that they can’t have labeled as such already…. But I usually tell people to check anyway if they’re not sure. There are chicken filets and chicken patties in the freezer they can have, and of course eggs. They also can have French toast I just use the rice milk. If you want to take them to McDonalds, we get the double plain hamburger one for each and both a med fry, its cheaper that way than a happy meal and you get more. They can have the sprite and they also like the apple slices (not the caramel it has milk in it). They like to eat the apples out of the little bags they come in!!! Too cute..

Emergency and other Numbers 101:

Their Pediatrician is Dr. Kelly Casper. ***-***-****

My cell number is: ***-***-****

Chad’s cell number is : ***-***-****

My mom’s home number is: ***-***-****

My mom’s cell number is: ***-***-****

My Dad’s cell number is: ***-***-****

My sister’s phone number is: ***-***-****

Emergency Medical Info 101: If something should happen, I’ve left you a copy of our insurance card and our pharmacy insurance card. We go to Aultman’s ER. As far as I know they aren’t allergic to any meds. Medical history they’ll want to know, so here is what they’ll want to know… A little recap:
1. They were born eight weeks early, reason for premature birth was that they were of a multiple birth.
2. At birth they weighed 4 pounds apiece.
3. They were resuscitated at birth and put on ventilators and the C-PAK for 48 hours, lungs were immature. Jaundiced under the lights for 8 days. Stayed in the NICU at Aultman for two weeks.
4. Allergic to milk and all milk products and byproducts, (important so they don’t give meds with milk byproducts in them).
5. They have asthma and are taking Flovent and Clarinex.
6. Their IGA Immunoglobulins are low and they're being seen and monitored for this condition by Dr. Kishore at Akron Children’s.
7. If it is Carter, He is currently on Omnicef for a double ear infection.
8. Oh yeah I almost forgot, Levi has had two eye surgeries to his left (? The jury was out on this but we both thought it was his left) eye. He had it probed when he was 7months old and then again when he was nine months old. Was put under and did fine.

That should cover all the questions they would ask you at the hospital. If they need our personal information here it is:

Chad M **** DOB (you know but humor me,hehehe) 9/22/1975 S.S. #***-**-****. Employed with Ryder Systems as a Warehouse Manager/ CLC.

Katie M ****, DOB 3/5/1982 S.S. #***-**-****. Employed as a mother of twins!!


Conclusion and Thank Yous 101: That should take care of everything. I’m also leaving you with a BP card for gas should you need it. I bought diapers and wipes so you should be good on that. If any unforeseen expenses come up we also left a credit card.

Thank You Very much for doing this we appreciate it more than words can say!! Have Fun with them and don’t hesitate to knock em’ a good one!!! Enjoy!!!!

Love you guys, Kate and Chad.




I'll be back Sunday night with pictures **note to self: pack camera*** And fun tales of my adventures!!! Have a great weekend everyone!!

Just Me HNT....

Ok had a busy week so didn't get around to an actual hnt...Hope you all don't mind. So this week its just Me.

Update: Thank you all for your supportive comments!! I've decided..... To Go!! I'm going...Look out Columbus here I come!!! Kimmy girl, you'll be a hearing from me!! And just for you......Countin' em' down....2 more days!!

The Plight of the Mother Bee...

So this weekend is our Columbus trip. I'm excited to go and really need the break, but Chad found out last night that he might not even be competing till nine at night!! Makes for a really late night coming back and for a really long weekend away.

See I've never been away from the boys over night (except when chad and i had the flu and mom came and took them out of our germ filled abode, but i was to delirious to care). I really need the break, all mothers need time away at some point, and I'm really excited to see my sister and to meet KimmyK...... But this ball in my stomach keeps bouncing around when I think about being away THAT long and THAT far away.

Talk some since into me people!!!!! Tell me things like "they'll be fine"..."It will be good for both you and the kids to have a break from each other"...... "Your Mother in law will be fine with them ALL weekend"......

I WANT a break know I NEED a break, so why is this buggin' at me?? Is it some sort of mom gene? I should feel good about it not anxious and conviced something bad is goning to happen..... Arrrggg.

We were concerned that he's parents would take them to see he's sister, but we thought, "Naw why would they do that, they know how we feel about that?" Today Chad's dad called and said they didn't want to go behind our backs so they would ask first..."Can we take them to your sisters?" Chad told them No. (We have this thing, If you can't be concerned about them and ask about them when their fighting for their life, than you can't participate in their life when their winning the fight. ) If that makes us the bad guys so be it, their our children and we must do what's best for them.

So I'm trusting them that they will head Chad's wishes on that.... And I'm writing everything out for them and leaving Dr.'s numbers and all....So what's the problem, why this ball in my gut!!!!

Help me people!!! Talk some since into me!!!!

It's that "Time" again.....Oh yippe skippy!!

I Have To Say It.... Awww Much Better.....

I must have been absent the day of school when we went over social decorum and conversation skills. I am at the point where the next person I meet that actually has a conversation with me, meaning they say something then I respond then I say something, they LISTEN and then they respond to what I said, is going to be one of my favorite people!

Last night tired of never being heard or engaged in conversation….Only ever being “talked at” and never being heard I decided maybe I had it all wrong, and so I set out to learn about conversation….Turns out that, this time at least I had it right, must have been there that day after all!!

Webster’s dictionary defines conversation as:
a (1) : oral exchange of sentiments, observations, opinions, or ideas (2) : an instance of such exchange : TALK

The word “exchange” would be the important word there. Then I saw they used the word “talk”, so I said to myself, “Self…maybe your confused on the meaning of talk”….So I looked that up as well:
1 a : to express or exchange ideas by means of spoken words b : to convey information.

Ummm It says the word exchange also…. Not one-sided talking at while the other listens but is never given a chance to be LISTENED to. Then I said, “Self, maybe you have the wrong idea of what listening means, well Webster’s defines it as:
2 : to hear something with thoughtful attention : give consideration
Well that’s what I thought…People aren’t listening to what I’m saying and giving it consideration or thoughtful attention, because they don’t know what I said or respond to it or even look at me and pretend I said anything!! Quite frankly I’m becoming very tired of it, and now that I did my homework and know I have the correct understanding of it, very frustrated.

I will now give you all a few examples, all of which happened over the weekend, of what I encounter EVERYDAY, and then you can tell me if I have reason to be agitated or if I’m just being my manic self:

***Pulling into the garage in the van with Chad***

Me: “Honey you should of heard Levi when we picked him up at mom’s and he saw Carter!! He said ‘Hi’ and then Carter said ‘Hi-a’…It was sooo cute!!”

Chad: “What do you think I should eat the day of the competition?”

***Visiting with Chad’s mom and dad***

Chad’s Mom: “Wow Carter sure does like to drink, he’s drank two of these juice boxes already!”

Me: “Yeah he drinks all his drinks and then goes over to Levi and ask him something in their language and Levi hands him his sippy cup to finish!! I guess its good Carter asks and doesn’t just take it; he waits till Levi’s done with it!! Isn’t that cute?”

(The sound of crickets) **2 minutes later**

Chad’s mom: (turning to Chad) “So did your dad tell you about what all I’ve been hearing at work?”

***On the phone with my father***

Me: “ So you used the CD-R’s to make your picture disc right? Not the DV-R’s?”

Daddy: “ Yeah I used the CD-R’s cause I don’t have a DVD burner just a CD burner”

Me: “ Yep that’s what I’m using the CD-R’s…. Well hmmm I guess I’ll call John and see if he knows why it’s not working right.

Daddy: “That’s what I’d do He put that program in for me so he would know all about it.”

*2 minutes later*

Chad: “Your dad just called and wanted to know if you were using a CD-R, he said that’s what he used.”


Now granted that some of these like my Father on the phone are funny…But for the most part it’s just becoming hurtful. I have been told since I first started talking,
“Katie you don’t have to talk so loud, we’re right here”..
So I don’t think it’s that I’m so soft spoken, people can’t hear me. There’s nothing worse than saying something in a conversation, only to finish and realize that no-ones even looking at you let alone listening to you!!

My once social- loved- to -talk self is very quickly becoming anti-social and mute.

I Can So Relate....

PEEK.... HNT

Expensive America....

Today I had to take Carter to the doctor, because he's been running a fever since Sunday.... Turns out he has a double ear infection. I was out of the house for an hour and a half, and the experience cost me 83.00!!!!

First I had to stop and get some gas: I put 20$ in and that gave me 5 gallons....Good thing I didn't have anywhere else go!!

Then I had to pay my copay at the doctors office: Now even though they take 300$ a month out of Chad's check for health insurance I STILL had to pay a 40$ copay... To that I say WTF??

Then on to the pharmacy to pick up Carters antibiotic: Now we pay 50.00 a month for prescription coverage, but I still had to pay 23$ for the same antibiotic that not five months ago I only paid 19$ for Levi to have.....Guess the price went up, and you can guess who pays for the increase, of course not the insurance company that would be to pricey for them!!

So there you have it.... I do not know how anyone makes it today.

We as a county are seriously heading towards another Depression. Chad makes what use to be thought of as a decent amount, not in this economy. And with daycare prices being upwards of 1200.00 I can't AFFORD to work to help out with the bills or to be able to afford a bigger duplex or even **gasp** a house.....

With mom's not being able to afford daycare so they can try and help the family pot and prices going higher and higher....We are for real....

Headed towards a DEPRESSION!!!! God help us all.

Funny.....

How life works. Last night I started thinking maybe this whole bloggin thing that I hold so dear..... Is childish or stupid of me to have as a hobby. But then today I got an email from Brae telling me to check out her blog.... I inspired her .

I guess my love of writting and of bloggin may of actually touched someone and that makes this hobby, that some view as stupid, soooo worth it.

And I'd be lying if I didn't say....It made my heart smile.

Thanks Brae!!

Big Fish Tale....

I got this off or Raf's blog, I thought it was fun:


If you are reading this post, please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.

It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you’re finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON’T ACTUALLY remember about you.

I’m anxious to read your stories and if you are going to do this experiment on your blog, let me know so I can come visit! Come on now, don’t be shy - have some fun and give me your best Big Fish Tale.

What I Did Today.....

I know I said I was cleaning today but I got sidetracked with another project.....

I've been wanting to start a new blog and today I did!! I created the template myself and all! I'll still have this one, the new one is for my flustrations as a housewife. Check it out its called Confessions of an Angry Housewife.

Let me know what ya think.... Tomorrow is cleaning day...Yeah tomorrow!!!

Cleaning Day......

Today is cleaning day at my house, I LOATH cleaning!! If I had the extra money I would hire a cleaning lady. I know to some that might seem stupid as I'm a stay at home mother and "should have all the time in the world to clean"..... Key word there? SHOULD....

So I'm off bandanna on my head and all....

Hmmmm... Wonder if I shouldn't catch up on my blogs first?? Cleaning can wait a minute....Right? Oh then I really must get eggs and I should read the boys their letter book, and oh I should..............

Living Up To It...

I posted this post back in March, I saw it again the other day as I was going through my post trying to get ideas for the book, and I thought I'd post it again!! Enjoy....

So I was taking a shower this morning.....And started looking around at the names of my products I use. I had conditioner on my hair that had to sit for two minutes....I had some time to kill!! As I read the labels of each one I came to an alarming realization......I don't think I'm living up to my products!!! Examples: Brilliant Brunette, true I am brunette but its not brilliant nor is the shampoo making me brilliant as in giving me this million dollar idea to market! Lovely the perfume by Sara Jessica Parker, well all I can say is I am far from lovely in the morning and after chasing twins around all day I feel far from lovely at any point. Satin Soap now if this is suppose to make my skin feel like satin than its failing me or else I'm failing it by not having satin skin from using it....I'm not sure which and after a minute pondering it my cynical side said it was probably me. Vivid White now this one I got excited about because I though YES I am defiantly Vividly white! Until it hit me that it was my toothpaste.....Damn struck out again!! Suave yes at times I have my moments but for the most part I am not suave by any definition. Multi Purpose yes this may be my contact solution but I am happy to say that this one I feel I am living up too!! I am very Multi Purpose around here!!!! Natural Glow Lotion ummm ok yeah I may look as though I'm glowing but that's just sweat...You chase around toddler twin boys all day you'd "glow" too!! Clarity Toner yes clarity would be nice in my crazy life.....And tone? Yeah ok let me get on that!!

Meet Levi and Carter

Meet the boys!! (Carter's in green and Levi's in orange) They're speaking they're twin language... so enjoy!!

To Be Heard.........

I’m starting to realize why those women that bug me the ones that can only talk about their children and define themselves by them once they have them, do so. People respect and expect you to, anything else throws them off.

Its one of the things that bugged me about my sister in law, but now in light of recent happenings I think I understand why she was that way. It was the only why she would be heard. People listen or at least pretend to listen when your talking about the kids, but start saying other things that you are interested in and they tune out. Makes me wander if I’ve had it wrong all along.

Was I supposed to morph into the sole role of mother and lose myself when I had kids? I’m starting to get from people that there are things a “mother” shouldn’t say or be in they’re opinion. But at what point does being whom everyone wants you to be to make them happy make you unhealthy and unhappy? If you can never express yourself and talk about certain things, than your just stifling who you are, and won’t that eventually just serve to make you crazier?

Chad and I had a falling out with his sister a while back, he told them not to call us and we were not to call them. And basically it was all over the other not feeling as though they were being heard.

Being heard is a funny thing. We all want to be heard but few of us want to listen especially if it’s not what we want to hear. She was worried about her son who had been through two surgeries and was still getting ear infections, and called one morning to talk about it. The timing was bad in that we had just heard from the Doctors that the boys were headed toward needing blood infusions and the risk of rejection and death were there, but with them getting sick and constantly needed antibiotics cause their immune systems weren’t there they’re life was at risk too. So either way we had a lot on our minds. I thought since the day before at moms we told them the boys had their appointment that’s why she was calling so early in the morning to see how they were, but she was calling to talk cause she was worried about her son, and so I listened. Later she called to say the dr said if he doesn’t stop getting ear infections they would check his immune system and maybe I would know what all that meant. It angered me cause had she given me the chance to be heard, she would know that that’s just the thing treating our sons’ life. Chad told me to call and express this, and that was that. Basically we both just wanted to be heard and the timing on not being heard was BAD.

But maybe she’s so use to not being heard about anything cause people are always to wrapped up in the kids and don’t hear what your saying, that she learned to talk about it and not let others say anything, cause what they have to say might make you question who you are. And maybe she got tired of that. And this is how she learned to combat that. I’m not sure I’m making any sense here but I know what I’m trying to say!! Hehehe.

So I guess my point is that we all want to be heard and in the rush of wanting that we don’t always know we’re hurting others. And the mothers out there that want to hold on to themselves while being a mother, have a long hard fight ahead of them!! But bring it on...Cause I'm ready!!!

VS HNT.....

Alright people I'm being a little more daring this week. I sent my shots to Trojan and this was her favorite so as she said "I'm going for it". HHNT!!! *


* If ya like the bra, ladies, its from the Very Sexy line at Victoria Secret.

Caann..T Breaath.....

Its been a few days since I posted soooo unlike me I know!! My asthma has flared up really bad here the last few days, and I finally went into the doctor today since my breathing treatments weren't kickin' it!! She gave me a bunch of shit I gotta take everyday to keep the asthma in check...yippee skippy do....I hate having to remember to take things!!! Arrggg.... So that's where I've been, hopefully I'll be back to normal (or as close to normal as I ever hope to be) soon.

Special thanks to my sister Sarah and Anthony for going through my Amazon site and making a purchase!!! YOU ALL ROCK!!! Thank you soooo much, ***big hug**** Every bit helps....... Keep it up!!

Updaten' Ya.........

I thought I’d update a little. The boys had their two-year check up and they’re right on track. We take them this month to have their blood taken again, we’re hoping the third time is a charm, and their levels will be in the normal range. If they’re not normal by fall the doctors said they still might do the blood infusions to help them through the winter. So think “levels up”.

My blogger buddy Ian is putting together a book and asked us if we wanted to to submit apiece. The deadline is July 31st……. Pressure Pressure!! I finally started working on it last night and I think I now know where I’m going with it. I just have to complete it on time!! I’ve never been asked to be involved in anything like this before and I’m way stoked! Side note to Ian: It’s the 31st U.S. time not Aussi time!! LOL…. Don’t cheat me a day!!

July 22nd Chad and I are headed to Columbus. I’m going to shop with my sister and check out her gallery she has this month, and Chad’s competing in the NAGA jui-jitsu competition. And I’m also going to meet up with my other bloggin’ buddy KimmyK…. I’m soooo excited!! A little nervous as well as it the first time I’ll be so far away from the boys and overnight… I REALLY need the break though, just a little antsy!!

One last thing: As some of you may have noticed I now have an Amazon search box and button on the right sidebar. Every time you use it to get to Amazon through my site and then purchase something I get a tiny referral fee. I have it set up that it will go into an account for the boys’ education. First stop? Preschool!! You’d be shocked at what they charge for preschool now a days, of course times it by two! Figure when they’re ready in a year I’ll be able to pay for their first month…LOL. I’d appreciate it. I don’t know about anyone else but I do most my shopping on line its so much easier with the twins. Now if you could buy groceries on line I’d be set!!!

Just A Thought......

Is there really real talent or is talent just the opinion of an adoring fan? I may think that one singer or artist is talented and you may think they don't have talent at all but that a different person does. But that doesn't mean the other artist has any less talent than the other just cause someone doesn't care for it. So the thought is..... Is there talented people, OR are they just lucky people who met the right person who got them started....... So is it more Luck than talent, meaning the right people thought they were talented? Just a thought......

Wow I've either crossed a whole new level of craziness or all these cold and asthma meds are making me a brilliant philosopher!!

Ummm....Yeah, bed..... I need to go to bed, bed is good.........